In some ways, it is still hard to believe **I** went to Haiti.
It’s hard to believe that it was me holding those boys.
These beautiful little guys, who lost their mother, and were abandoned by their father, found in the streets a year ago by Pastor Rigaud, are now calling me Mom.
I spent many moments just in awe of that fact. In awe that I was in fact, even in Haiti. (I have never left the country before… let alone going to one with 3rd world living conditions). Wondering how I came to be there, agreeing to mother these boys who have been through trauma after trauma. Wondering if I even could. Asking God to do a work in me, to make me able to fulfill what He has called me to. To give me a real mother’s heart for them. Because it is different, meeting a child for the first time, that you did not give birth too. But my aching heart already shows that God is doing a work in me.
This is the last morning we were there. In the wee hours, the boys climbed into bed with me. Somehow, it’s all really true. I, Spring Gouette, went to Haiti. I held two precious orphans in my arms, and told them in Creole they are my sons, and they are beautiful, and I am happy to be their mother. I held Augenson as he sobbed at our departure, then watched him have to shut down emotionally because of the pain. I cried in the airport. I cried in the plane. Somehow, in the wonder of God’s plan for my life, I have two children, waiting to come home to me from Haiti.
So beautifully said, Spring. You captured what those of us who have adopted feel when meeting, getting acquainted with, and then having to leave these children we fall in love with. It is heart wrenching, but God alone gives us the strength to get through it. We have to remember that they are in His hands. He loves them more than we do.
when I saw the pic of them laying on your lap and then the other one with them laying beside you on the bed…..I felt that bonding moment…..that new baby indescribable sweetness between mother and child -ren….this is all so unbelievably beautiful….
Spring, I saw your story in the Sun Journal. What a thrill to read of your desire and dream coming true. I have been to Haiti 4 times and I would love to be able to bring a child home, but that doesn’t seem to be God’s plan for us. I loved seeing your photos and being reminded of my times there.
Hi J-ME! Thanks for visiting my blog! I read about your Haiti 2010 trip… so many of those thoughts and conversations have been ours on this journey… how best to help, how best to really serve. Thankfully, if we are listening, God is at the helm!